Time Alone in Wide Open Spaces

9 May

As planting season gets underway, I find myself with an abundance of free time. While the Dairy Man spends every waking hour tilling and planting, I am getting (re)used to being alone.

This alone time often falls victim to things like naps, Facebooking, and Mad Men marathons, but I’ve been trying to spend more time taking long walks with the pups. Without any reason to rush home (i.e. no one is waiting for dinner), we’re free to journey further and further from the dairy.

Out here, there are no sidewalks.

There is no pavement.

We leave the dairy behind and set out into the deep country.

Jersey and I wander down dirt roads and disappear into an overhanging canopy of trees.

Tire tracks let us know that others have traveled the road before, but we don’t see a soul.

I would enjoy the walks more with company. Having the sturdy Dairy Man by my side would certainly dispel the occasional “I’m going to get murdered” feeling that comes from such rural isolation. But the wilderness is peaceful. I am alone with my pup, my thoughts, and the rustling of a gentle breeze through the leaves.

The silence is deafening. My soul craves it. Somehow these rolling hills and the wafting scent of manure stun me. I live in a beautiful place.

Things are only going to get crazier this spring + summer + fall, but I’m no longer a complete novice to this country life. The Dairy Man will get in when he gets in; we might eat tacos at 9:45 p.m. or Subway on the side of the road; I will have to relearn how to be alone. But I can’t help but feel so very blessed.

And you can’t beat the view.


8 Responses to “Time Alone in Wide Open Spaces”

  1. Fiona Lowe 05/09/2012 at 7:33 am #

    Jessica, your photos are lovely as is your dog. You write beautifully. Ever thought about using your alone time to write a book?

    • the Modern Farm Wife 05/09/2012 at 3:29 pm #

      I’ll let Jersey the dog know you think he’s lovely! Thanks for your comment, Fiona. I’ve certainly thought about turning all of these vignettes into a book someday. 🙂

  2. Nancy 05/09/2012 at 12:54 pm #

    I can so relate to feeling alone during the spring and summer months. We soon started having kids which changed the alone feeling – but didn’t take it away. I am so grateful for cell phones so at least we can have regular conversations all day long! I often miss my hubby during long work days, but I am so very proud of him for his strong work ethic and his passion for farming, even when it’s one of the hardest jobs ever!

    • the Modern Farm Wife 05/09/2012 at 3:27 pm #

      Thanks, Nancy. It’s nice to know that others are feeling the same way I do this time of year! It can get lonely at times, but I agree, it’s so important to support their work and dreams. Good luck this spring!

  3. Dawn 05/10/2012 at 10:42 pm #

    Jess, I work out of town, and stay out pretty much every week, at least one night. I miss my husband terribly during that time, though it’s good to get away to a town with 15,000 people. I know what you’re talking about! But it makes seeing each other again that much sweeter….


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